7 Nov 09

Rot at home the whole day.

Eat, sleep, watch tv, sleep again and eat again!

oh gosh! if im staying at home for the whole of the holis, i bet im going to become a BIG FAT PIG!

hahaha=D

time to slim down and get down with some excerises.

because of my injuiry i have not been engaging in any physical activities since then. hope my leg will recover soon.

suddenly, feel so scared. whether will i get promoted or retain. this friday i will get to know it. i dont dare to face the face and im facing it alone. my parent is not here with me. im so scared that i will dissappoint them once and once again. how? may god please bles me that i will get promoted. even its adv promote, i will still try my best in the re-exam. i really hope that the school will give me a chance. just one chane. if i cant even do well in there-exam then i really deserve the outcome! please! just give me a chance! i really need this chance. oh please!

6 Nov 09

op session today.

the LAST OP that i will be having.

it was totally SCREWED UP!

everything that will be happening on the actual op day will be exactly what will happen today.

drop cue card, no eye contact, stumbled, no passion and etc.

anything can happen on that day.

Jedan gathering today.

it maybe the first and the last jedans outing for this years.

because after that everyone will be busy wit OELP trip, re-exam and etc.

meet up at 12noon. then the strength was so few people.

supposed to have BBQ but we predicted that it will rain hence we call it off and decided to eat pizza.

slack in the field with a lot of jedans people.

we chat, jokes and the guy was playing sport.

suddenly got this warm feeling like a family! it has been a long time since that feeling has captivated me.

take benedict camera and went around to take photos. didnt take much.

move toward canteen to slack and watch jj com movie.

play ipod and play the puppet game.

pizza was here but was not sufficent for everyone.

 hence the F1 people take the initiative and go out and buy food back.

thank them for making the effort. everyone appreciated that. THANK YOU!

then play prank on jason meimei, yanling friends, benedict friends, fadli friends!

it make me remember the times that i spend with my sec friends. it totally AWESOME!

celebrate yanling birthday! was totally a surprised for her. she thought that i knew it, but i knew nothing. hahhha=D

so not everything i will know what happen.

after dinner,

some random feeling suddenly strike me that make me feel like crying. i dont know why i will have this heart pain feeling but i feel like crying. i nearly cry out already, only the eyes was watering.

i feel like going home at that instance.

thank debbie for msging with me at that moments. i really appreciate it! thank you:D

the stay back for some night walk stuff.

after that, they have some 'SMASH CAKE' session where they smash everyone.

then went home.

mummy and daddy going to marcu today!

feel like the whole hse will be a totally change again.

i really miss them, hope that come back soon! i miss you all, enjoy the trip too!

love mummy and daddy! hope to see you all back on the 19!