went ben hse to swim, hot spring bath and also ben and jerry at some ulu places that i dont really know. i guess im really a mountain tortoise. hahaha=D
supposed to meet huiying outside school but bec she was late so end up i went to school with her.
But i cant go in bec IM WEARING SLIPPER!
hahaha=D i obey school rules okay?
then headed to ben hse. on the way, pick up like other ppl.
attendance: huiying, ben, wc, fangting, me
went swimming. didnt really swim much. then after that went to some fluo bath thing.
it was SUPER NICE! nxt time you all should try it.
went into sp to meet liqi pass her shirt.
then saw jass goh, baolian, kahhwee and liqi( like the obvious)
if im fated to see you, i will see you. maybe we are not fated!
the headed down to some ulu place to eat icecream and also cam-whor like mad!
this time round is really mad! to the EXTENT THAT WE ARE CRAZZZZYYYYY! (photo will be up soon)
then headed home. was supposed to meey someone but i was late so end up didnt meet up.
im so sorry to that person and i cant put her name out first bec if certain reason.
sorry!
then went home.
on my way home, thousand of things went thru my head, actually one thing only.
i was feeling super lost and i feel that im aimlessly walking down this road of my future.
i and thinking if i will get promoted or not?
i know that i will be getting my result on friday but i just feel like knowing now.
actually i ask myself, have i done enough to let the school to let me promote or not?
i hesitated on my answer. i have been thinking about this answer.
i can admit here that i haven been doing my best at the start but i have been trying to put in 100% effort when i know that my result was dam sucky during the mid-year.
i make the effort to try t make a differences in mark. i know that very clearly that, my promo have to score like super good in order to get a pass but i tell myself that i will score as high as i can.
i never give up during the promo. i did study! maybe to some, they may think that im doing last minutes work, i can understand and they think that jc shall have consistent. i cant defend myself over this but i know that at the start im trying to adapt with all the subject. maybe i didnt put in doubly the hard work but i did try.
i pray and tell myself that i cant retain. i think back, why i want to get int jc? at the start i just want to tell all my arrgoant relatives that even a NA student can do well in thir o levels. doesnt mean that we are NA then we done know any stuff! dont underestimate us. so, i went into jc just like that? i have alway been the lousy among my cousin. although my parents didnt say out how they feel, i know that when i can get into jc they were SUPER PROUD of me. i will always remember the moments that they look so hurt when i get into NA. the reaction on thier face is a ightmare to me. i dont want to see to see this face in them anymore. im old enough to think and stop making so much trouble for them. im really trying. maybe my parents alway say that they can see me trying, but i can understand how they feel when they need to hear from the mouth of their daughter that she is failing badly and its drowning. i think that my parents has no fault and they shouldnt go thru this. shouldnt i be facing the music? i know that. but i just hope that im given another chance to work hard. i dont want to retain because i dont want see the reaction of my parents again. i will give my SOLID PROMISES that if i get promoted i will work hard for nxt year. im not kidding. i dont want my parents high hopes on me to be tarnish!
please god, please give me a chance to get promoted.
i really want this chance.
maybe you will think that all promises that make a mend to be broken but i wont break this promise!
please dont let this nightmare to come about again.
i dont want let them down and the most i dont want see them worry for me!
so please, i beg god to help me!
i really want your help.
may god bless me.
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