Why am i keep in this worrying and confused state since the start of this year?
i seems as though im not myself like that.
i have been worrying:
whether should i get into jc or poly?
should i be a house council or not?
continue joining hockey?
should i go for the china trip in xi'an?
My mid-year result and exam?
should i go for medan?
to guess what exactly you are thinking?
to find out more about you?
trying to make myself believe that you wont cheat or lie to me?
believe you that im yours?
trying to get the security from you?
will i get promoted?
friendship?
should i go for yunnan trip?
should i join next year orientation?
trouble with so many many questions!
i have never stop worrying since the begining of this year.
i really have enough of all this. trying to think that what i actually want for myself.
at times i already know the answer but i just need some one to be my assurance.
nevermind then, i guess i shall rely on myself then relying on others.
there are so many choices that i have to make, making one wrong choice will resulting to me falliing down.
i think i have enough of all this problem that have been arising.
i think its time for me to let go. im very tired now! let god decide whether which kind of path i should take.
when can i even have a moment where my brain can stop worry about all this thing?
trouble have been coming to and fro me and it has never end.
can i have a shoulder to rest on? to really blast out everything. i have enough enough, totally enough!
i need someone to cry on, a shoulder, a listening ear!
its so tiring since the start. i dont want to make any more decision already.
i really want my brain to stop thinking! just let me be who am i can? please god, i really please you!
i want to close my eyes and rest on...
please god! bless me!