youmakemesmile-sy

2010-01-23T23:49:00.000+08:00

this week rather a different weeks for me.
i get to go home earlier and slack.
suddenly feel that that this year is totally differ from the others year, esp the sense of belonging.
okay, having loads of test next week.
CHEMISTRY,GENERAL PAPER AND MATH.
all this tests have make me gone entirely mad to the core.

feel so sick this whole week.
was banned for physical training this week because of gastric pain.
really hope that my sickness can recover.

i have been missing for your message.
no matte how cold you treat me now, i still need an answer.
be it logically or not, i still need.

messaging with you this few days!
rather miss the times that spend with you.
im wondering of all these sweet talks touched me?
im not sure and i dont dare to think far.
you shall lead me to the right path, no one but you.

CONTRADICTION!

the light of this road should be guided by you and not other's!

get on the running shoe and run.....

2010-01-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

starting of my hectic life again.

schooling, studying, mugging, tuition-ing, tests and basically everyone seem so competitive now.

to my surprise, i have been online-ing for one whole week.

wondering what i have been doing this one week.

this week have two test -math and physic.

i think both test i have done extremely badly.

out of so many many subjects that i take, i only love chem and econs.

even though i dislike physic and math to the core but i still have to score well for alevels.

have been telling myself not to procastine but i have been procastine all this while. certainly sure for this week.

trying to give my holis a big closure, but my heart have never been doing so.

sometimes i have thinking that everyone say that as long as you make the effort to study, you will do well.

how real is this statement?

suddenly lost track in the direction that i want to go.

seeing people who graduate from university or even going into university, seem noble but its so far far away from me.

nevertheless, i still have to go through. that's the promise that i make for myself and also to the people who have high hopes on me.

and i just hope that someone can be my motivator or rather a person who can stand by me to constantly teach me on the weaker subject.

its so hard to find but i know that i really really need help in physic and math.

pleassseeee, someone help me! seriously.

i know its my last years in jc and i cant slack anymore.

its time that i put on the fast pace running shoe and start running to the final destinations.

SET MY GOALS CLEAR! i dont want my goals to be only dream.

I WANT TO GET INTO PSYCHOLOGY COURSE!

im still constantly waiting for your message. your message is definitely an act of motivator to me!

im becoming like a tutu girl =)

2010-01-09T21:41:00.001+08:00

FINALLY...

i cut my hair.

waited for super long sia-.-

but like some noob now.

im still waiting for your reply.

not only you have feelings but i also have can?

you are human so am i.

im expecting just a simple message from you, but you didnt give me!

2010-01-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

Exactly two months i haven been directly talking to you.
this entire two months has been a total difference world for us.
maybe you have begin to avoid but why do you do so?
you owe me an explanation then.

billy bombers.
celebrate wenyong birthday!
the first birthday celebration for the new year.
hahahaha=)

you can never be taken or replaced!

2010-01-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

sometimes i need the freedom and space to react.

stop pushing me to the extreme end before i become reactive.

once it belong to you, no one can take it away!

trying to finish up my holis homework.

however, it seem like never-ending!

I LOVE MY HOMEWORKS. ("REAL")

Stop doubting me!

2010-01-06T22:19:00.001+08:00

Studies is important.

But doesnt mean that you dont see me study mean i never study can!

stop doubting my ability.

i know my own path, just be my pillar of support.

THAT ALL YOU HAVE TO DO!

so pissed off now! simply just shut up!

i never gonna know what you thinking despite im so close to you!

2010-01-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

i stroll, you walk

i walk, you jog

i jog, you ran

i ran, you fly

how do you want me to catch up with your fast pace?

you never even give me the chance to chase!

met up with my new principal today.

she talked about "BALANCED"

it used to be such as easy words, but then now its an entirely different words to me.

balance, balence, balence, balence, balence....

2009-12-30T20:27:00.002+08:00

Its so hard to get myself into the studying mood.

Finish one half out of twenty-two homeworks!

shit, im in dead meat this time round -.-

ps: saw a handsome guy at starbucks! (im not bimbo okay?)

get on with my mugging....

its supposed to?

2009-12-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

Love is all about patient and giving ones the sufficent love that they ned.

Who exactly need all this everlasting love?

is people who are less fortunate than us that need all this love from us.

Supposed to mug.

But in the end, i sleep, eat, watch tv and PRACTICALLY JUST SLACK!

nevermind, still got others day.

2009-12-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

Running down this journey, ones need a lot of LOVE, COURAGEOUS, DETERMINATION!
its hard to travel down this road alone.
only you can make me smile. =)
you are the ones who know what i exactly.
Only you will have the telepathy with me. and no ones else.
i dont know how to express out the kind of love language.
BUT i do know that i loves your smile =)

2009-12-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

HOHOHOHO!

MERRY XMAS TO EVERYONE!

BLESS THAT SANTA WILL GRANT ALL YOUR WISHES BEFORE THIS YEAR ENDS.

one more hours then xmas is ending!

LETS ENJOY THIS LAST ONE HOURS TO THE MAX!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

i received something special from huiying! so sweet of her.

love her loads loads loads!

2009-12-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

feeling pissed off over a couples of stuff.

chill down shuyi!

cant be bother now. -.-

the fifth day that we didnt message! p.s: copyrighted frm lq

2009-12-22T21:54:00.000+08:00

It has been the fifth day that we didnt message with each other.

kinda got this feeling why we never message already ah?

Is it bec i know that you cant message and i dont want waste your message? or bec you dont even message me then i dont message you too? or we dont have anymore tpoic to start kick off?

HOWEVER, i will still hope that there's will be a day that you will message me (self-initatied)

sometimes, i think that life is full of a loads of miracle.

people stepping in relationship who used to be friends, couples that used to be sweet during the honeymoon period butin the end break up, people who are fling with each other, life and death, love and hatred, friends or enemies. loads of happenings have always been circulating in our life that no one can even predict what is happening next. next moments this will happen, next will be this?

Maken-ing at Aijsen.

chit-chat and heart to heart session.

2009-12-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

Haven been updating on the current affairs this whole week!

SUNDAY: WORKING TOMMORROW! with huiying and liqi.

SATURDAY: supposed to go for some meet up session but end up due to some reasons, we didnt went meet up at all. althought i dont know if he will still got the chance to meet up with you again or not, BUT I HOPE THAT WE CAN MEET UP BEFORE THE SCHOOL STARTS! hope that you can make this meet up session possible for us!

IN THE END, went slack-ing, shop-ing, grocer-ing, market-ing.

GUESS WHERE WE GO? ohh gosh! JP IS LIKE OUR LAO DI FANG FOR ME AND MY FAMILY!

its has been a long time i went out with my daddy and mummy.

i think that it so sweet and nice to go out with them.

I LOVE MUMMY AND DADDY TO THE MAX! <3

dinner out then went to court to see fridge, oven and also kettle!

my daddy have so many things to buy before the end years.

FRIDAY: nothing much happened excpet that I SLACK ALMOST THE WHOLE DAY AT HOMMMEE!

ITS SO SO SO NICCEEETO SLACK ONCE IN AWHILE.....

THURSDAY: WORK AGAIN AND AGAIN! then headed for some cookies making with cindy. this cookies is to give to all my darlings.

WEDNESDAY: DEBBIE'S CONCERT! its was a nice performance. i know that she have put in a lot of hardwoking into this concert, beside involving in performing, she also involved in planning.

also, i was amazed by all the performers. they are REALLY REALLY AWESOME! give them like a round applause! and this performer some learn piano at a super young age. i think that they will make good prespect in being a pianist!

XMAS WEEK!

21 DEC- ADMIN STUFF AND DEBBIE BAND CONCERT

22DEC- CLASS OUTING/DINNER

23DEC-WORKING AND DINE OUT WITH COLLEGUES

24DEC-XMAS COUNTDOWN PARTY

25DEC-WORK AGAIN AND DINE OUT FOR XMAS DINNER WITH DARLING

26DEC- FREE

27DEC-FREE

SCHOOL GOING TO START SOON.

THREE MORE WEEKS.

I HAVE THOUSAND AND THOUSAND OF HOMWORK TO DO!

ARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH...KILL ME!

2009-12-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENEDICT AND XUXUN!

MAY ALL THEIR WISHES COME TRUE IN THIS SIGNIFICANT DAY =)

Rotted at home like some LAZY PIG since i woke up.

Intended to get some work done like studying and going swimming, BUT IT SEEM THAT ITS SO EASY TO SAY BUT ITS HARD TO GET IT DOWN.

im so envy with people who have such a high determination to get their work done before they actually enjoy their holis.

sad to say, i dont have the motivation that drive me far!

JUST HOPE THAT I CAN FINISH THAT PILE OF HOMEWORK JUST LIKE THE MOUNTAINS THAT ARE SO SO SO SO HIGH UP!

WATCH THE LIFE TRANSFORMER AT CHANNEL 8.

i nearly teared when i wtached it.

THERE ARE STILL MANY MANY MANY PEOPLE WHO ARE LESS FORTUNATE THAN US AND WE STILL TAKE EVERYTHING THAT WE HAVE NOW FOR GRANTED.

WHAT WE HAVE NOW IS THE BLESSING THAT OUR ANCESTORS GAVE TO US!

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

(by 1 Corinthians 13:4-7)

TO END OFF,

SHOPPING SPREE TOMMORROW WITH CINDY@ TOWN.

AND

DENTAL APPOINTMENT ( MAYBE GETTING OUT BRACES TOMMORROW- REAL TRANSFORMS!)

wooohooo, its been such a long time i have go for shopping spree.

GOING TO HAVE LOADS LOADS OF FUN TOMMORROW! =)

2009-12-13T22:18:00.001+08:00

Havent been blogging since the friday.

Rather tired of blogging for awhile.

Off my bed SUPER EARLY to get my slacking mood to working mood.

Together with huiying and liqi.

rather busy today bec its like so many many people there.

leave early, headed for family dinner at the turf city.

eat all kinds of seafood and FULL TO THE MAX!

headed home.

there are so many many many many things and stuff that i want to do!

1. TOWN SHOPPING @ FAREASt WITH CINDY

2. SUPPORT DEBBIE'S CONCERT

3. CHRISTMAS PARTY

4. CLASS OUTING

5. 19 DEC 09

6. ION WITH HUIYING

7. COOKIES DAY

8. MOVIE WITH PEIQI AND YANLING

9. YEAR END SALE @ TOWN (PARENTS)
10.TAKING OUT OF BRACES, LIKE FINALLY!

11. .............. SO MANY MANY MANY

LASTLY. MY UNCOMPLETED HOLIS HW HAS TO BE COMPLETED!!!! ARRRRGGGGHHHH!

MUST FINISH EVERYTHING BEFORE 110110. =)

2009-12-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

get away from my slacking life and went to work.

i can use no words to express it, only people who try out this job will know the feelings.

saw something that make me feel that father in the world today will still express their love out openly to their daughters and sons.

A father holding his son's hand and happy walking in the direction of the entrance of the snow city.

Isnt it something rare that you will see on the streets nowadays? and the sons is around the age of an upper primarystudent.

FATHERLY LOVE FOR SONS! <3

went to IMM for dinner with yanling, peiqi at aijsen.

huiying not here bec her stomanch not feeling well.

but at least i saw her yesterday!

WAHAHAHAHA:] jealous people?

headed to huiying hse to slack again then i went home.

also, i want say sorry to wenxing that i cant make it for the movie tonights. im totally tired off already.sorry to ps you, will compensate back one. WAHAHAHA=)

also, i want to THANK PEIQI AND YANLING LOADS LOADS!

flash back...

2009-12-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

train down to vivo city to meet darling huiying.

Eat SUPERDOG for late lunch cum early dinner.

its the first time i eat that lor, i bet a lot of people do not know where that place!

there's alway a lot of FIRST TIME with my her.

stroll around, went up to the vivo rooftop to have some heart to heart session.

quoted by huiying: it's seem to be back to the time where we meet up first time!

headed to huiying hse to slack.

she intended to give me birthday present but in the form of so secretive you know.

although i dont really know what exactly have happen but i know that she at least make the effort to prepare this gift and plan today!

THANK YOU, huiying! love <3

SUPERDOGS!

to huiying : thank you this heart to heart session. although we haven been meeting for the these one month or so, but thank you for remembering my birthday and also thank you for replying my message and the gifts. its definitely my pleasure to have you as my bestie. there may seem to have a lot of challenges along our friendship for this soon to be one years friendship, i have never forget the times that we spend together.

this moments will be stored in my mind. this soon to be one year friendship to others may seem like only one year but i hope that in us, it hold a different kinds of moments. never forget the days that we actually first meet. i hope that all the FIRST TIME that we actually have together will be stored and lock in ur minds!

thank you for today, the times will never be forgotten in the past, now, or even future! love you <3!

these are moments that we have and never be forgotten!

love you loads loads <3

BELIEVE OR NOT?

2009-12-09T12:12:00.000+08:00

1111?

WHAT EXACTLY IT MEAN?

WAHAHAHAHA= SOMEONE IS MISSING MISSING MISSING YOU!

does anyone believe in this?

when i saw 1111, something good will happen to me on that day.

so should i? seem so UNBELIEVABLE right?

HAHAHAHAHAHA =)

never see 1111, mean that no one is missing me today! [sobsob]

hais! whoever miss me, faster message me!

to show me that you misses me.

miss me in the form of friendship or etc!

WAHAHAHAHA=)

okay, meeting my darlings huiying.

so long never see her already, missing her lots lots lots!

anyway, introduce you all to one SUPER SUPER SUPER AWESOME SHOW!

its called KOIZORA-SKY OF LOVE!

its super touching and nice.

go and wtach it on youtube!

2009-12-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

bugging me to upload all the photos on blog!

FINALLY ITS HERE TO STAY!

WAHAHAHAHA=)

the happiness shall just begin..

2009-12-06T16:08:00.000+08:00

i want to show my special thanks to,

thank loads loads to all my darlings and hunk who have make my birthday such a splendid day and definitely an AWESOME and a DAY FILLED WITH LOVE AND WARMTH!

also all the effort that they put in to give me a surprise.

its will forever be remember in my hearts!

thank you all and love you all to the very max <3

05122009 is being loved by all of us!

2009-12-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

Midnights strike.

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!

come, everyone send me message to wish me happy birthday!

anyway, its huiteng birthday too!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUITENG!

MAY ALL HER WISHES COME TRUE ON THIS DAY!

LOVE HER LOADS LOADS!

THANK JIAWEN, CHUANJIAT, VIVEN, VIVEN'S BF, CINDY AND JESSICA FOR CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY WITH ME! LOVE THEM TO THE MAX!

EVEN THOUGH WENYONG IS NOT HERE WITH US, BUT I STILL HAVE TO THANK HIM TOO!

HAHAHAHA=)

steamboat session.

Eat like crazy and its so full mann!

everyone feel like vomitting lor.

hahhah=D but we INDEED ENJOY OURSELVES!

I SHALL ENJOY TOMMORROW TOO!

LOVE MY BIRTHDAY LOADS LOADS!

2009-12-03T23:32:00.000+08:00

A SURPRISING DAY FOR ME.

1.debbie, cindy, nuanqi and jayme celebrated my advance birthday with me in school.

2.cindy brought me a winnie the pooh while i was slacking with her at jp.

THANK DEBBIE, CINDY, NUANQI AND JAYNE FOR THIS SURPRISED BIRTHDAY AND ALSO ITS GREAT TO HAVE SUCH A CELEBRATUON WITH YOU ALL.

also, thank cindy for the gifts and cakes that she brought for me. i think she make a lot of effort in trying to deceive me and stuff. she did a great job because i really never realised any loops holes.

thank debbie and peiqi for the present that you brought in yunan for me.

REALLY THANKS YOU ALL DARLINGS!

study at starbucks!

wah, its been quite sometimes that i actually TOUCHED MY BOOKS you know?

THATS WONDERFUL!

started off with chemistry.

dinner at ambush.

i realised that fate will make a differences in everyone life.

so i think that everyone must believe in fated and also trust urself.

WAHAHAHA=D

2009-12-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

got fool in the morning by jiawen.

not going believe her again! WAHAHAHAHA=D

meet up with panny, jiawen and jessica at vivo!

CELEBRATE BIRTHDAY!

although i know that they are celebrating with me but i think that its really the thoughts that count.

i really appreciate all the things that they have done for me.

even though i know them at workplace but i know that we ar still FRIENDS FOREVER!

FIREWORKS AT VIVO!

its super beautiful you know.

vivo has alway been a romantic and nice place to date for couples especially night time.

whoever is a couples, feel free to go there!

WAHAHAHHAHHAHAHA=D

okay, going to see debbie in school tommorrow!

woah, its been so long since im going back school.

finally i got enlighten...

2009-12-01T20:45:00.000+08:00

i read a book 'FRIENDS' today.

it stated that : there are different kinds of friends that have been evolving around your life but who are exactly you true friends?

this sentence has strike me and thousand of thoughts that have been running through my mind for the whole day.

in this world, there are thousand of people of their whole character.

Friends that care throughly and really sincerely treating you part of their lives, playing the most SIGNIFICANT PLACE IN YOUR HEART.

there are friends that just treat you as partners where you can find them when you really really really need them.

However, there are also friends that are just basically HI-BYE friends.

so i reflect back, what is the true meaning of friendship in this world?

everyone has its own principal and expectation of friends but what is mine?

EVERYONE NEEDS FRIENDS BUT THEY ALSO NEED TRUE FRIENDS THAT CAN GO THROUGH ALL THE PARTS AND PARCEL IN LIFE WITH THEM.

BUT WHO?

i reflect back, who exactly know what am i thinking?

can anyone even stand at my shoe and see where im exactly coming from?

someone ask me before: what i exactly wants for my birthday?

that questions is so shocking to me. shouldnt they know what i wants?

maybe they dont but i cant blame them.

i dont know if im utterly disappointed in what is happening now, but i hope that what is im my mind will never come true or even in future. i have high hopes on you and trust in our friendship, hope that what im thinking is far beyond what exactly happening.

its has been running through my mind these few days!

i have never forget 27APRIL2009, BUT DO YOU REMEMBER?

also, i have never forgotten the day, 27NOV09, although i didnt message you?

of couse there is something that im up to, its a surprises that i coming up.

is it all the effort and hardship that once put it in in anything will get good deed back?

is that really true?

someone please tell me!

sorry for stating this on my blog but i think that everyone should give yourselves the time to reflect on the people and friends surrounding you. know who are they, treat all your friends equally, fair and square and know what they really are then you can maintain that worthful friendship.

to end off, i shall end off with a quote,

"Friendship that flows from the heart cannot be frozen by adversity, as the water that flows from the spring cannogt congeal in winter."

- James Fenimore Cooper

2009-11-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

COUNTDOWN:

FIVE MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!

YEA, TOMORROW IS 1ST DEC.

I LOVED THE MONTH OF DECEMBER! WAHAHAHAHA=D

WELCOME BACK ALL THE YUNNANIANS!

nothing much happening today.

nothing special.

okay, im going to ngee ann poly tommorrow!

yes, finally i can go and crash them.

2009-11-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

COUNTDOWN:

SIX MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!

30th, 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and its my birthday.

supposed to do honey cornflakes today but didnt managed to carry out this plan.

nevermind, shall wait for other time.

headed to my uncle house to learn some itouch skill.

found out that im REALLY REALLY REALLY A IT NOODBIE!

a lot of stuff i have never come across and its seem so tedious but FUN LEARNING!

hahahaha=D

2009-11-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

COUNTDOWN:

SEVEN MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!

yea, im so looking forward to it.

EXPO - SITTEX fair was crowded with lots of lots of people.

its the 2nd time i went this week.

the number of people there has never been decrease throughout this IT fair despite of the economic recession.

FINALLY I GOT ITOUCH!

waiting since the start of the year, and i got it today.

actually i feel that im fortunate at times because not everyone in this world can get all these privellges.

at times, i have been thinking! people of this generation are living in the world where they can whatever thing they want from their parents without even demanding for it.

as parents they have no choice but fulfilling their children wishes.

headed home.

tomorrow, going to do honey cornflakes!

i have done twice but it failed and i hope that this time round will be a success.

okay, if nice then i shall let my darlings try it.

sorry for some poor quality photos!

2009-11-27T22:20:00.002+08:00

27 nov 2009

watched 2012 today with benedict.

at marina square.

thank him for accompanying me to watch 2012 again.

however, i will still watch again if anyone still want to watch it.

one word to describe that show: its AWESOMW, FANTASTIC,TOUCHING AND....

and its basically is a NICE NICE NICE SHOW! (three times repeated words= serious)

also, we did some eaveshearing today.

behind us was a father and two daughter. we hear the whole conversation and it makes us feel like laughing but we endure until we are further away from them.

headed for lunch at bk.

afterwhich, we did some crazy stuff.

WE WALKED FROM CITY HALL TO RAFFLES! its a 45min journey.

seem far but bec we keep joking and talking around therefore the journey seen so short.

ohh to my surprised, singapore got road called the battery road leh?

amazing right? i bet not much people know this place.

then headed home.

something funny happen.

HAHAHAHA=D

26 nov 2009

in the morning supposed to have clique breakfast!

ROTI PRATA SESSION AT BUKIT GOMBAK AT 9am.

but end up bec too many people already so we ended up eating the shop besides it : MAC!!

headed to expo for the sittex fair.

saw my juniors working over there.

rather shock.

something fruitful : CINDY BROUGHT A CAMERA at $200!

its relatively cheap price and its within her budget.

then headed to sp to SUPPORT CJ IN THE SP STAR EVENT.

FINALLY I CAN SEE DARLING LIQI, RATHER LONG I HAVE NOT SEE HER.

SERIOUSLY MISS HER A LOT!

i bet she never read my blog but nevermind then.

its SUPER SUPER LONG that i hear cj singing.

i think he is still a great singer in the minds of us.

trained to jp.

slacked around then my parents send me home.

i really miss class 5B! it have been a long time that i actually see them.

miss then lots!

anw, debbie is coming back! WAHAHAHA!!! miss her lots! =D

COUNTDOWN..

EIGHT MORE DAYS TO MY SPECIAL DAYS!

WANT TO CELEBRATE WITH A COUPLES OF PEOPLE

1. DARLINGS (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE)

2. CLIQUES

3. BESTIES
4. FAMILY

the ranking are not in order!

photos all on fb!

2009-11-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

SHOPPING SPREE TODAY!

at town. with cindy!

didnt really but much stuff but i spend around 60bucks.

take train down.

In the train i saw a lot of familiar faces and i also saw my PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIEND.

itsnhas been a long time since i last saw her on the train too.

shall meet up with her soon.

went to ION, and we almost got lost okay!

i think mxt time i must go out with a road directory.

shopped three hours at fareast.

WAHAHAHA! a lot of cheap stuff and i really feel like getting it all home.

then go around shopping.

didnt cam-whor much bec we were busy shopping like crazy!

i want to go on shopping spree again when the GSS is nearer.

HAHAHA!

then headed over to cindy house to slack awhile and also went over to do some honey cornflakes but it was a FAILURE!

can anyone kindly teach me how to do? i really want to learn.

tommorrow going for prata session with my friends then headed down to expo for sittex fair.

then after that going SP to supprt CJ in some compeition.

HAHAHA! i can see all of them again! really miss them to the max.

photo shall upload as a whole tommorrow or asap!

2009-11-24T21:35:00.000+08:00

Rotted at home today.

( intend to meet darling liqi BUT she seem so busy. wanted to pass her some cookies that i made myself. so long never meet her, hais. hope that i can see her on the special day that i have been looking forward too on the month of december! WAHAHAHA- DEC IS COMING! )

Currently like a 'VCD freak' who watch vcd like crazy.
didnt blog much this few days because getting tired at times.
how i wish that there is someone who actually stand by me, BUT currently no one.
Shall not be EMO-ING here.
I WANT TO WATCH 2012. confirm got people think that im so slow right but indeed i am.
OHHHH GOSSHHHH!
i want to watch. okay, shall wait awhile more.
NOT WORKING = NO $$$ (BROKE)
NOT STUDYING = NO MOTIVATION + HOLIS
TIREDNESS = LAZING AROUND + FEELING IRRITATED AT TIMES!

WHAT EXACTLY AM I DOING ALL THIS WHILE?
someone please tell me!

QUITE ENJOYING THE LIFE NOW, NO NEED STUDY = SLACK SLACK AND SLACK!

WAITED FOR THESE MOMEMTS SINCE THE START!

2009-11-23T20:39:00.001+08:00

i have longed and waited for this moments since the start of 13 november.

i feel that i have been living in a world that is so hectic until i feel that i cant breathe at all.

everyday has been these kind of life.

going school, lesson, lesson, study study and once again EXAM!

hated this kind of lifestyle that i have been going thru now.

ENJOYMENT TIME!

im done with my math re-exam.

this math paper i find it rather comfortable when i do it but i dont know of i can make it thru or not.

went to MOS BURGER to have lunch.

HAHAHA: they have renovated already. its a differ atmosphere there.

then went over to cindy house and i did cookies!

i have been wanting to do it for long.

the cookies is AWESOME okay?

is not self- praising but even cindy mummy and brother also find it nice.

thank cindy and her mummmy for helping me with the doing of cookies and also lend me the faciliaties!

yeah, it a success! WAHAHAHAHA! =D

then headed home.

my family member find the cookies nice too.

anyway, PRATA SESSION HAS BEEN POSTPHONE TO THURS!

our outcome

COOKIES!

CHANGE TOPIC!

i have alway been thinking if i really suit to step into this relationship or not.

Feel rather lonely at times.

BUT WHY are you treating me HOT AND COLD all these while?

whenever you text me or reply me back, that kind of happiness is you cant imagine one.

i have been thinking, are we suited to be together, or are we being forced into stepping into this relationship?

sometimes i feel rather tired in life but i cant find you. i also feel tired over the that kind of hot and cold feeling that you hvae been giving me?

should i really give it a stop? i dont know!

i know the importance that you stand in me, but i also feel rather restless having such a relationship! (no longer existing)

Feel like giving myself a break away from life.

its maybe time for a break!

2009-11-21T20:51:00.000+08:00

There's a thing that i learn few days ago

ONCE YOU SAID A LIE, YOU NEED THOUSAND OF GOOR WORDS OR LIES TO RECOVER ONE SINGLE LIE!

stop all those crapping and lying to me. i dont want to get decieve by you again and again.

you think that people wont know that you are lying? then you are totally wrong! you have already use a lot of lies to come up ONE SIMPLE LIE!!

november its going to end..

yeah, im birthday is coming! sort of looking forward but then..( forget it)

okay, this year has soon begin to come to a FULLSTOP!

this year has never been a GOOD YEAR for me.

Full of troubles, anger and saddness!

whatever it is that, just want this year to end soon and hope that it will be better next year although it will be a hectic year throughtout!

MONDAY GOING TO HAVE MATH REVISION EXAM!

ARRRRGGGHHH, hope that the paper is EASY!

after that, im going to PLAY TO MY FULLEST, BUT

i WILL STILL FINISH UP HOLIS ASSIGNMENT! ( that the promise to myself)

i just realised that there's some places that i found recently is a BEST PLACE to study besides public library.

SP LIBRARY! its super quiet and was not crowded with a lot of peole.

GOOD PLACE TO MUG!

but then, sp got a lot of my friends so i have the tendancy to play around with them.

nevermind, not in the rish to mug!

also, sp foodcourt three fruit juices is SUPER NICE! (got chance, please try it)

okay, stoooopppp ALL THE ADVERTISTING!

SHALL MUG NOW!

HATE MATH BUT I WILL TRY TO LOVE IT THIS TIME ROUND!

2009-11-18T20:37:00.000+08:00

went to 'CRASH SP'!

realised that lifestyle of poly students seem rather more relaxing and they really ebjoy themselves everything.

meet up with jiawen at her school there (SMA)

she brought us to food court 3 to have our lunch.

I LOVE THE FRUIT JUICIES THERE! its DAMN NICE okay!

whoever got the chance, please go and try.

the went to sp library.

its a place where you can really really study! ljust like normal public library and its much quieter than that.

ITS A BEST PLACE TO STUDY FOR EXAM! (ben recoommended too)

shall bring people over to sp to study next time.

intend to study but END UP, i spend my time chatting and roaming around the places!

DIDNT EVEN STUDY! ARRRRGGGHHHH!!

went to mac to meet up with cc, lq, cs.

its been such a long time that i see them.

espically lq, so hard to really date her!

and i heard that my class is holding A CLASS GATHERING TOO!

IM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!

headed home after that.

2009-11-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

GP REMEDIAL LESSON

breakfast with fadli, huiying and minsunn at school mac there.

benedict supposed to join but he OVERSLEPT today.

GP lesson was boring.

i dont really get what the teacher was trying to say even though i have listen at the begining.

WENT TO WATCH PARANORMAL ACTIVITY (movie)

before that meet debbie up at jp to have lunch.

attendance: yanling, zhiyang, huiying, junhao, fangting, me.

then headed home with hiuying.

ate PIZZA for dinner, was very FULLING!

then start off to study for math re-exam.

FEEL LIKE TOTALLY NO ENGINE TO START OFF WITH MATH!

im trying to do the differentiation question.

i have never thought that math will be so diffcult until i step into JC.

the good images of math has been totally destroyed!

tommorrow, im going to cook spagehetti. ( provided i wake up early)

i think my cooking skill suck!

hope that time can stopped at this very moment to let me enjoy all the good times that i have now.

maybe im being so immature to keep thinking of playing all this while but i will also try to manahed well with my schoolwork!

BELIEVE SHUYI CAN DO IT FOR SUUURRREEE!

2009-11-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

four more days my parent coming bac from china already.

I MISS THEM SO MUCH!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RUISHENG aka GOD BROTHER!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

best wishes to him and hope that his olevel result will be AWESOME!

god brother date me and all my cousin out for a birthday date today.

went to lot 1 pizza hut to have our lunch.

before that went to jp to buy him a gift.

its the first time that i actually celebrate birthday with him you know.

What a bad god sisiter am i right?

now, i realised the importance of maintain a good qin qing.

they will alway be there for you no matter what.

like they are the ones that make promises to you and never be broken.

after that, we intend to watch movie but all the timing didnt suit us at all.

then decided to head to jp to shop around.

but in the meanwhile, we decide to try out our luck by going westmall to see if there is movie tic or not.

but to our surprises, it was crowded with people.

i think that everyone is desperate to watch that show - 2012.

a lot of people think that its a nice.

i want to watch too.

too crowded so everyone decided to go home then.

IM SUPPOSED TO START OFF THE FIRE IN REVISING MY MATH TODAY, BUT THEN IN THE END I WENT OUT THEN WENT HOME THAT TIME THEN SLACK ALL THE WAY!

OHH GOSH! ITS EXACTLY THE WHAT MR HONG HAS TOLD ME THAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME DURING THE HOLIS. EVERYTHING IS APPEARING NOW.

NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

SHUYI CANT SLACK ANYMORE.

I MUST REALLY START OFF THE FIRE NOW!

NO MOREE WAITING, I CANT LET ANYONE DOWN.

NO, I CANT!

ENDURE 7MORE DAYS THEN GET OVER THE MATH RE EXAM THEN I CAN PUT THE HEAVY BURDERN DOWN.

OKAY, GET THE ENGINE STARTED.

NO MORE FOOLING AROUND SHUYI!

get on my study cap and start study!

2009-11-14T20:09:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL VACATION SHALL BEGINS!

this holiday seem like so slack not like the past few year holis.

it the first time that my holis will be spending most of the time at home since him not involved in any stuff.

everyone seem to be so busy accept me!

people that i want to date them out they are so busy with a lots of stuff. they dont even have the time for me can!

i have been trying to date them but they cant even make it. its either i cant or they cant.

maybe in life, its time for me to make a decision.

i think maybe its time to get used to such lifestyle already.

i shall learn to stay at home and find thing to do at home.

they are SUPER BUSY! okay, maybe that how it should be like.

and, IM SO FREE!

PW HAS FINALLY ENDED!

thank to all my group member for making the effort to make this pw to turn out to be a success.

its indeed all the hardwork of everyone.

then went to school to hand up insights and reflection.

supposed to meet huiying to go school together but i missed my bus. sorry about it.

then waited for 8am to arrive.

SUBMISSION OF INSIGHTS AND REFLECTION!

then slack at school around then went home.

when have SHUYI'S LIFE become so plain till the extent is going school and going home and at times go out.

i know that past few year the life of mine is not like that.

okay, maybe everyone have make a change in their life already.

its time that i should do some changes.

i hope to meet up with darling liqi soon.

i have been asking her since oct, but we keep changing the time and etc.

maybe she is damn busy, then let her finish her work first.

2009-11-13T21:41:00.000+08:00

Im FINALLY going to say byebye to my pw after tommorrow submission of insights and reflection.

OPresentation today!

my whole group feels that today was the BEST PERFORMANCE among all the previous trial that we have attend.

this show that yesterday our effort was being pay off.

report to school at 715am today. pretty early than my reporting time.

i was SUPER TENSE UP in the morning. i feel very NERVOUS.

ACCESSORS ARRIVE!

the atmosphere is like SUPER SCARY!

but i will bear in mind what my daddy told me yesterday even though he was not in spore : all the best to me and he believe that i can do well.

this kind of words seldom come out from my dadyy. i feel very TOUCHED!

I HOPE THAT TODAY OP WAS INDEED THE BEST SHOT FOR ME!

then went to general office to take back my result.

to my surprise, im PROMOTED! but have to retake math exam.

thank god for giving me this chance to prove myself once again.

i shall make a promise to myself that

1. SHOULD NOT WASTE MY HOLIS ON GOING OUT.

2. STOP SLACKING ALL DAY LONG AND REVISE FOR TOPICS THAT YOU ARE UNSURE OF.

3. FINISH ALL HOLIS HOMEWORK( COMPULSORY)

4.THERE A TIME TO PLAY, THERE IS ALSO A TIME TO STUDY!

then leave school with ben to meet up with cindy.

went to eat the value meal mac.

afterwhich, ben got trg so she went off. left with cindy and i going around jp like idiots to roam around till 5pm.

end up we cant tahan then decided to find a place to sit.

you know what, we went to eat hagendas ice-cream. its was supposed to cost as like a BOMB, but end up its only $5.50 per scoop. its ex but then we managed to dine in.

then went home to sleep.

thank DEBBIE, BENEDICT, XINYI who managed to wake me up today.

without their morning call, i guess i will be LATE!

THANK YOU ALL!

PW SCRIPT!

ice-cream = $"BOMB"

tomorrow, i have to reach school by 745am to submit insights and reflection.

LAST PW!

im going say BYEBYE TO PW!

2009-11-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

OP TOMMORROW!

All the best for all the people that are taking their op tommorrow.

Also, GOOD LUCK TO ALL 09S24!

i freaking scare now. i scare i will under perfomed.

tomorrow will be getting back result too. hope everything went smoothly for me. i dont wish to have anything crop up or happen to me.

LAST CHANCE TO SAVE MYSELF FOR PW.

shuyi, you can do it one, for sure! be more confident.

next, i want to thank you my pw group member, DEBBIE, BENITA, COLIN, PITSOON, who has been so efficient in doing the pw all the times and also, hope that tomorrow we will really do our best in it.

should not talk too much. make use of this time to practise op.

okay, JIAYOU EVERYONE!

send me good luck wishes too please!

last two day!

2009-11-11T21:15:00.000+08:00

PROMOTED? ADV PROMOTE? RETAIN?

basically, which one is it?
can i believe what you all have said? or am i just giving myself some hope that i will get promoted? what exactly is it? the waiting moment of it is so TORTURING can! i just want to know the outcime. i feel so stress up at this every moments! at times, im thinking... am i just looking for an answer and actually i know this answer already? is it just that i dont want to admit the fact? i dont want face the reality.
i dreamt of a BEAUTIFUL DREAM yesterday night.
I WILL GET PROMOTED! (dreaming)
but in fact, dream and reality is a big difference.
there is hundred of people who are going to be retain.
am i inside the 100 of them?
i feel very stress up in waiting for it.
tired of all this stuff. i dont want to be who i am currently now. im so sian of all this.
i want to go to my own dream land.

Last three days of enjoyment and i have to face the reality!

2009-11-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

went ben hse to swim, hot spring bath and also ben and jerry at some ulu places that i dont really know. i guess im really a mountain tortoise. hahaha=D

supposed to meet huiying outside school but bec she was late so end up i went to school with her.

But i cant go in bec IM WEARING SLIPPER!

hahaha=D i obey school rules okay?

then headed to ben hse. on the way, pick up like other ppl.

attendance: huiying, ben, wc, fangting, me

went swimming. didnt really swim much. then after that went to some fluo bath thing.

it was SUPER NICE! nxt time you all should try it.

went into sp to meet liqi pass her shirt.

then saw jass goh, baolian, kahhwee and liqi( like the obvious)

if im fated to see you, i will see you. maybe we are not fated!

the headed down to some ulu place to eat icecream and also cam-whor like mad!

this time round is really mad! to the EXTENT THAT WE ARE CRAZZZZYYYYY! (photo will be up soon)

then headed home. was supposed to meey someone but i was late so end up didnt meet up.

im so sorry to that person and i cant put her name out first bec if certain reason.

sorry!

then went home.

on my way home, thousand of things went thru my head, actually one thing only.

i was feeling super lost and i feel that im aimlessly walking down this road of my future.

i and thinking if i will get promoted or not?

i know that i will be getting my result on friday but i just feel like knowing now.

actually i ask myself, have i done enough to let the school to let me promote or not?

i hesitated on my answer. i have been thinking about this answer.

i can admit here that i haven been doing my best at the start but i have been trying to put in 100% effort when i know that my result was dam sucky during the mid-year.

i make the effort to try t make a differences in mark. i know that very clearly that, my promo have to score like super good in order to get a pass but i tell myself that i will score as high as i can.

i never give up during the promo. i did study! maybe to some, they may think that im doing last minutes work, i can understand and they think that jc shall have consistent. i cant defend myself over this but i know that at the start im trying to adapt with all the subject. maybe i didnt put in doubly the hard work but i did try.

i pray and tell myself that i cant retain. i think back, why i want to get int jc? at the start i just want to tell all my arrgoant relatives that even a NA student can do well in thir o levels. doesnt mean that we are NA then we done know any stuff! dont underestimate us. so, i went into jc just like that? i have alway been the lousy among my cousin. although my parents didnt say out how they feel, i know that when i can get into jc they were SUPER PROUD of me. i will always remember the moments that they look so hurt when i get into NA. the reaction on thier face is a ightmare to me. i dont want to see to see this face in them anymore. im old enough to think and stop making so much trouble for them. im really trying. maybe my parents alway say that they can see me trying, but i can understand how they feel when they need to hear from the mouth of their daughter that she is failing badly and its drowning. i think that my parents has no fault and they shouldnt go thru this. shouldnt i be facing the music? i know that. but i just hope that im given another chance to work hard. i dont want to retain because i dont want see the reaction of my parents again. i will give my SOLID PROMISES that if i get promoted i will work hard for nxt year. im not kidding. i dont want my parents high hopes on me to be tarnish!

please god, please give me a chance to get promoted.

i really want this chance.

maybe you will think that all promises that make a mend to be broken but i wont break this promise!

please dont let this nightmare to come about again.

i dont want let them down and the most i dont want see them worry for me!

so please, i beg god to help me!

i really want your help.

may god bless me.

2009-11-10T22:26:00.000+08:00

overslept today morning.

supposed to wake up at 9am but i dont know why the alarm didnt ring at all.

i guess im too tired until i didnt hear it rings! yesterday night sleep at 1am.

thank you huiying's morning call, if not, i really dont know what time am i going to wake up.

THANK HUIYING!

went to debbie house for STEAMBOAT session.

attendance: huiying, debbie, weichen, cindy, junhao, shuwen, xinyi, zhiyang and me.

benita and fangting not here, or else will be full strength!

its was totally AWESOME and NICE!

THANK DEBBIE FOE PLANNING AND ORGANISING THIS GATHERING!

its a great bonding session for us!

also, thank debbie for preparing the food for us.

eat steamboat, then started our gambling den, cam-whoring and etc.

practically slack at her house for the entire afternoon.

headed home during the late evening.

was gossiping and chatting non-stop.

love this kind of feeling! i really love all of them to the max.

thank them for bringing so much joy to me!

thank you:D

the send huiying home, slack at her hse for awhile then headed home too.

simply a tired day!

thank everyone who make the effort to come today.

thank you all.

entirely a day that full of laughter from my clique!

2009-11-08T21:04:00.000+08:00

Feeling so bored now!

i have been spending my whole weekend at home.

i dont understand why is everyone so busy with their stuff and im not.

either they are busy with their project, assignment. opresentation, homework or they just simply so busy that i dont really know what they are doing.

i feel myself so slack! i slack thru the holis.

i cant date liqi out this week bec she is so busy with her poly events even stuff.

so, nevermind then, i shall entertain myself.

my life has begin to have a lot of changes that is happening.

people that i used to date them out, they are normally not free now. they are all living in their busy world.

And, what am i doing? beside slacking thru the whole weekend , i really dont know what im doing.

Maybe this is just the start of my holis life. i dont have common break with them.

i think i have to try to adapt with this kind of lifestyles. its time that i find something for myself to do.

this coming friday is my a level actual opresentation. and its also a day that i have to face the fact with. either i get promoted, adv promote or retain? everyone was thinking, since i have a C grade for H2 then i should be able to adv promote, but is that the fact or not? am i even given a chance by the school?

maybe i can blame no one but myself for this consequences! i didnt keep up with the momentun at the start and startrd to hang on and fully wake up when ots after the mid-years exam.

i think i can blame no one! i just want to enjoy myself before this coming friday actually arrive!

how i wish that it wont come, but it will still come. no choice, face it then.

i thik now i have to find myself to do before i really rot like mad! i juz expect some joy this few day!

TOMMORROW, I GOING TO DEBBIE HOUSE FOR STEAMBOAT!

another cam-whoring session that im going to have.

i have so amny stuff that i want to do, but now i know that i cant do those thing happily.

2009-11-07T20:19:00.001+08:00

7 Nov 09

Rot at home the whole day.

Eat, sleep, watch tv, sleep again and eat again!

oh gosh! if im staying at home for the whole of the holis, i bet im going to become a BIG FAT PIG!

hahaha=D

time to slim down and get down with some excerises.

because of my injuiry i have not been engaging in any physical activities since then. hope my leg will recover soon.

suddenly, feel so scared. whether will i get promoted or retain. this friday i will get to know it. i dont dare to face the face and im facing it alone. my parent is not here with me. im so scared that i will dissappoint them once and once again. how? may god please bles me that i will get promoted. even its adv promote, i will still try my best in the re-exam. i really hope that the school will give me a chance. just one chane. if i cant even do well in there-exam then i really deserve the outcome! please! just give me a chance! i really need this chance. oh please!

6 Nov 09

op session today.

the LAST OP that i will be having.

it was totally SCREWED UP!

everything that will be happening on the actual op day will be exactly what will happen today.

drop cue card, no eye contact, stumbled, no passion and etc.

anything can happen on that day.

Jedan gathering today.

it maybe the first and the last jedans outing for this years.

because after that everyone will be busy wit OELP trip, re-exam and etc.

meet up at 12noon. then the strength was so few people.

supposed to have BBQ but we predicted that it will rain hence we call it off and decided to eat pizza.

slack in the field with a lot of jedans people.

we chat, jokes and the guy was playing sport.

suddenly got this warm feeling like a family! it has been a long time since that feeling has captivated me.

take benedict camera and went around to take photos. didnt take much.

move toward canteen to slack and watch jj com movie.

play ipod and play the puppet game.

pizza was here but was not sufficent for everyone.

hence the F1 people take the initiative and go out and buy food back.

thank them for making the effort. everyone appreciated that. THANK YOU!

then play prank on jason meimei, yanling friends, benedict friends, fadli friends!

it make me remember the times that i spend with my sec friends. it totally AWESOME!

celebrate yanling birthday! was totally a surprised for her. she thought that i knew it, but i knew nothing. hahhha=D

so not everything i will know what happen.

after dinner,

some random feeling suddenly strike me that make me feel like crying. i dont know why i will have this heart pain feeling but i feel like crying. i nearly cry out already, only the eyes was watering.

i feel like going home at that instance.

thank debbie for msging with me at that moments. i really appreciate it! thank you:D

the stay back for some night walk stuff.

after that, they have some 'SMASH CAKE' session where they smash everyone.

then went home.

mummy and daddy going to marcu today!

feel like the whole hse will be a totally change again.

i really miss them, hope that come back soon! i miss you all, enjoy the trip too!

love mummy and daddy! hope to see you all back on the 19!

2009-11-05T20:18:00.000+08:00

5 Nov 09

HAPPY SWEET 17th BIRTHDAY TO YANLING aka MEIMEI

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER!

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE ON THESE DAYS!

meet up in the morning with yanling and huiying

the go to school together.

it was raining like the whole day today. no assembly!

meet peiqi at ops room. then proceed to the canteen.

let meimei wear a party hat and a tag and make her wear it the whole day.

HAHAHAHAHA=D

then went to slack in the canteen. discuss about the next monday clique outing.

STEAMBOAT is here for me.

tired of staying in school so i went off.

grandpa fetch me from school. then bec too many ppl so cant sit the taxi then end up debbie and junhao has to walk out.

Scare of them being caught. so worry for them!

huiying,shuwen,debbie,junhao, they all come over my hse.

we have junhao and debbie as chef to cook for us. others was lke slacking. hahhha=D

nothing much today!

TOMMORROW THERE IS JEDAN BBQ!

another session for us to get bonded again. yeahyeah:D

looking forward to TOMMORROW!!

4 Nov 09

celebrate yanling birthday in advance.

we plat a plan and purposely make her cry.

and we SUCCEED! hahaha!

credit to huiying that been a good actress. but it has been a hard time that we cant even talk to each other for two weeks. oh gosh!

credit to peiqi, she did a lot of yanling birthday! making birthday surprises for her.

i really hope that meimei will enjoy it!

we cook ourselves for meimei birthday party.

was not very nice but is all our effort in it. we spend time cooking and trying to make it a success.

cam-whor like mad mad mad!

(photo on fb) wait for peiqi to upload.

went home at 9plus! so long never walk home with huiying already! feel so happy and enjoy that very short moments!

2009-11-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

Why am i keep in this worrying and confused state since the start of this year?

i seems as though im not myself like that.

i have been worrying:

whether should i get into jc or poly?

should i be a house council or not?

continue joining hockey?

should i go for the china trip in xi'an?

My mid-year result and exam?

should i go for medan?

to guess what exactly you are thinking?

to find out more about you?

trying to make myself believe that you wont cheat or lie to me?

believe you that im yours?

trying to get the security from you?

will i get promoted?

friendship?

should i go for yunnan trip?

should i join next year orientation?

trouble with so many many questions!

i have never stop worrying since the begining of this year.

i really have enough of all this. trying to think that what i actually want for myself.

at times i already know the answer but i just need some one to be my assurance.

nevermind then, i guess i shall rely on myself then relying on others.

there are so many choices that i have to make, making one wrong choice will resulting to me falliing down.

i think i have enough of all this problem that have been arising.

i think its time for me to let go. im very tired now! let god decide whether which kind of path i should take.

when can i even have a moment where my brain can stop worry about all this thing?

trouble have been coming to and fro me and it has never end.

can i have a shoulder to rest on? to really blast out everything. i have enough enough, totally enough!

i need someone to cry on, a shoulder, a listening ear!

its so tiring since the start. i dont want to make any more decision already.

i really want my brain to stop thinking! just let me be who am i can? please god, i really please you!

i want to close my eyes and rest on...

please god! bless me!

2009-11-03T14:52:00.000+08:00

IM IN SCHOOL NOW!

BLOGGING BLOGGING!

Just finish my insights and reflection.

like FINALLY!

but i scare that mine is not up to standard.

But then now, nevermind lar! too tired already.

chatting with jiawen.

She keep shooting me. hais!

2009-11-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

FINALLY, CHINESE ALEVEL IS OVER!

next coming up is project work oral presentation and insights and reflection.

suddenly feel that the shoulder burdern has been reduced like 50%!

No longer feeling that stress up and everything seem more of the relax kind!

but i still be complancent. i still have to do well for pw!

chinese was rather okay today! its suck but not totally suck! whoever get it mean you get it!

Hahaha=D you have make a promise to me! although i dont know if you actually wil uphold this promise but i hope that you dont break the trust that i have inplaced in you. i dont have much trust in you already. i just hope that you can treasure all the moments that you have with me and not take it for granted.

PROMISES ARE NOT MEANT TO NE BROKEN!

meet panny, jiawen to belebrate panny birthday in advance! hahaha=D heehee

her birthday is on the 5nov, same as meimei!

get a gift for her. went to eat Benten cafe.

the food wasnt very nice because it tasted sour and salted. not a good recommendation to eat there!

then slack around then went home. seem very insincere but its from the bottom of our heart!

oh gosh! we didnt take photo toda. shit see lar. so not meaningful.

nevermind, we shall day out one day to cam whor. ahhhhahh=D

now,i feel so RELIEVED!

I have one finally stuff that i have to do, is to date liqi out for shopping!

i promise her that i will go shopping together!

hope she will see my blogpost and inform me when she is free!

UPCOMING EVENT: meimei and panny

birthday, date with lq, finish up my pw to get

good grades!

Chinese Alevels Paper is finally here to kill me!

2009-11-01T20:21:00.002+08:00

CHINESE ALEVEL PAPER IS TOMORROW!

HOW? can someone tell me what i can do to score my As?

totally dont know.

Now im fear of taking exam leh! i scare that i cant do well. no longer have the confident that i used to have.

Maybe i have never step out of my confidence level.

Everyone is asking: what there's to study for mt paper? its a language paper!

yeah! i agree but seen so insecure. HOW HOW HOW? dont feel like taking exam tomorrow.

Hope that the paper is do-able tommorrow.

okay, nothing much today. totally like slacking at home, watching tv more than siting down there to revise chinese.

Sorry to people who have put high hopes!

today my mummy was talking to me about the oversea study if i cant make it to j2! want me to consider it. then all my life and friends here im going to lose them all. hais! totally like so fan over all this stuff.

Dont really know what to and juz hope that heaven will help me to make a differences!

god, please bless me to have good result for chinese alevel. please! let me pass with flying colours! please god, bless me!

2009-10-31T20:46:00.000+08:00

Chinese Chinese and Chinese!

its a language paper this coming monday.

haven started like much since the whole afternoon today!

wake up at 10plus am, slack around on the sofa

went to jp to have lunch with my mummy.

lunch, facial retailing, marketing then went home.

its have ben a long time since i actually take time out to spend with my mummy.

last time i have been alway been nag by my mummy saying that i cant make out time for family.

actually i was also reflecting like how come in so busy last time! hahaha=D

till now, i still dont know!

sort of wasted my whole of afternoon! by doing nothing! nothing! completely nothing!

oh gosh!

SHALL START MUGGING NOW!

KAMPATEH!! :)

simply wanted to stay at this current moments and not move on!

2009-10-31T15:41:00.000+08:00

30 Oct 09

went for 09s24 class outing.

its the FIRST CLASS OUTING that we have.

although we are still in our clique form but at least everyone make the effort to mingle around be camwhoring.

went to marche at Vivo city.

ate orignal swiss rosti, fruit tart and mushroom bread.

the dessert was AWESOME!!

after that, we started to camwhor like MAD!

people with camera started to take all those unglam photo and etc, like me!

then we went seperate way.

my clique attendance was 5/8. junhao, huiying and debbie didnt make it. but hope that they can join us together the next time round.

left with weichen, fangting, benita, cindy and me.

we went around, walking and shopping.

initially wanted to go to town to enjoy some night life but its was raining.

Raining is such a spoiler.

then we decided to go around to cam-whor. but wc went off bec she say she is too tired.

okay, the four of us really like MAD GIRLS! camwhoring like CRAZYY!! ARRRRGGGHHHH!!!

the maddness in us!

29 Oct 09

School as usual.

but was kinda of slack today.

was the so called the long weekend coming.

last day of school for this week.

2nd op session today.

was quite happy with my performance and it can be improved.

having eaten for the whole day.

having Mr Koh, our principal farewll party at 6pm.

initially wasnt that high,

BUT

afterwhich the sky turn dark and everyone started begin to became MAD!

ended at 10 plus pm.

went to pioneer mall mac to have dinner cum supper with 'meimei'.

then jason came too after that.

Reached home at 1145pm.

(photo on fb)

28 Oct 09

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINYI aka SISTER

HAPPPY SWEET 14TH BIRTHDAY.

school as usual.

went to find mr hong today.

consult him if i should be OGL next year or not?

sort of get an answer already.

went to westmall subway to accompany 'meimei'

then head over to my mummy office.

went jp together.

daddy wasnt around bec he went oversea for work.

have dinner with sister, mummy and myself.

at swensen.

i think that swensen service was damn good.

anyone whose birthday is coming can celebrate at swensen.

brought a diary book for my sister.

saw my friend working there.

was paiseh when i ask him to help us take photo.

after that walk around.

its has been an hectic week.

2more days to chinese a level.

i shall not waste my time and start studying like NOWNOWNOW!!

give me the drive and motivation.

GO,SHUYI!

going to start off my mugging journey now!

its never too late unless you make the effort to.

2009-10-27T20:33:00.001+08:00

EARLY DISMISSAL AT 1230PM TODAY!

nothing happen much in school.

as usual, LECTURE, BREAK, TUTORIAL!

actually i have already sort of clear my mind already.

For the whole of this year, i have been slacking my way through.

Not getting the foundation right? thinking of all the altnerative to run away from exam.

I totally dont know what exactly im doing but i can truely admit that i have pressure and fear in taking all the JC exam paper! i feel STRESS UP! i have ben trying to adapt to the lecture-tutorial styles, trying to figure out what exactly i want for myself.

i reflected over what mr leow told all the leaders yesterday.

he was saying that during the moderation meeting, all the teachers comment about the leaders are not very good.there are negative comment and that shouldnt be because we are role model.

BUT, have i been displaying role model? he also say that the next year J1 will definitely look up to all the OGL! i have been alway wanting to be an OGL, however, now im holding back. im thinking whether am i up to the standard to be an OGL! AM I A ROLE MODEL? that seriously is a BIG BIG BIG question.

Next, he also state that many of us, leaders have forget our aim and goals for coming to JC! i totally admit what i say. YES! i have lost my way when i step into the life of jc. i have somewhat lose the goal. what exactly i come to jc for? is it purely just to get into uni? i know that its was not the only for me to get into jc? but now, i cant find any reason why am i still sticking my butt into the seat of jc? should i really be here? maybe, its a bit too late for me to actually think of that! but what exactly i want out of this 2 years? still now, im still lose.

should i be studying now for my a level chinese paper where its like happening next monday? im still blogging down here, going to blog! im utterly disappointed in myself! i have let every single one of them down, especially my parents. they spend so much $$$$ trying to give me the best education, trying to help me out by providing me the opportunity of able to take up tuition but in the end? that what i have been doing to them?

not grateful at all to what they have done for me, showing them all this sucky result! wah, i believe "shuyi is the best daughter ever!!" that being scarastic. i think i have never make them prod at all for this entire year. beside spending their hard earned $, i have done nothing, absolutely nothing to pay their hardship. totally tired off from the entire world! not knowing where to go, but aimlessly walking on the edges of the road- falling/ soon to fall? i dont reallly know. i have no more energy to ever contince to fight on with the battle? i still have one more years to go? A long way of journey infront. please god, give me another chance! i will treasure it. to many, talks is simply cheap, i cant gurantee, but i will try. please god, help me! i soldemmly pleading for your help. please.

i think mr leow speech is totally enlighten me. now, its time i shall really pull up my socks and all my weapon to chiong to the end....

CHIONG SHUYI!

LETS JIAYOU,GOGOGOGO SHUYI.

2009-10-26T21:37:00.000+08:00

MODERATION DAY!

all the teachers gather in lt2 to discuss the performances of the student.

Oh gosh! i think that im in totally deat meat this time round.

Hope that the school will give me a chance to promte and i will prove to them that with my hardwork i will do well.

INTER-HOUSE COMPETITION, MURAL PAINTING, WORKSHOP FOR GIRLS AND GUYS!

i have volunteer to help peiqi out for mural painting. we stuck with the painting for like 9hrs of painting.

That not exaggeration, but indeed its real. we didnt even have our lunch. never mind at least we managed to finish. we are so proud of myself!

Im most proud of PEIQI! She is really a good artist. i think that she will be a good designer in the future.

Also, must say THANK to people who have help out. i think that they really done a good job. hahaha=D

Anyway, CONGRATS to banni and bikila who has draw in these inter-house.

Also, congrats to all RONO people who have make RONO PROUD!

GOOD JOBS EVERYONE!

PEIQI's workpiece!

after long hours of painting, went home and take a rest!

reach home then keep eating lots of food.

im DAMN HUNGRY!

HUNGRY LIKE WHAT!

hahaha=D

then rest and do my econs essay hw.

im done with it.

shall start studying/MUGGING

FOR CHINESE

FROM TOMMORROW!

tomorrow, lesson as usual!

hope that tmr will be a better day for me again!

bless god.

2009-10-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

wake up like damn early today!

slept late ytd so today was totally tired to the max!

went for mac breakfast.

its has been such a long time i actually ate mac breakfast.

went home bathe and go for pw meeting.

i alway late for pw meeting bec need to wait for my daddy to

send me there.

sorry to all my group members that i alway late for meeting. :(

reach there, then we spend most of the time discussing about

class chalet issue.

looking forward for a class chatlet, 09s24!

i think that the class chatlet will bond the whole class together.

since we only remain with one years plus more as classmates, why not we make ourselves bonded as a class and leave like good memories in the class.

although we are being divided into three rows and each has its own clique but i still think that all these clique can be bonded together to become a UNITED CLASS!

it will never seem hard unless we really have the heart to do so.

look through a lot of prices for the class chalet. then talk a lot about our experiences in chalet and its really a nice time chatting with debbie and ps. play ball in ps hse. keep throwing around.

talj about how nood we all are. i realised that i damn noob because most of the area i evolved around are either jurong or town area. next time shall go to other places.

went home. eat and sleep.

after this few days, i sort of reflect through a lot of stuff.

i think and think what i actually live in this world for? for friends? for lovers? for family? for studies? or for good future? although i didnt managed to get an answer out,one thing that im clear of is that i think that i live in this world is really for everyone. my presence in everywhere, will generally make a differences in everyone life!

also, i havent started revising for chinese paper and i only left with ONE MORE WEEK!

shall start to revise like NOW!

mt since nth much to study but i shall quote everyone that : even though there is nothing much to study, i think that we all should still study. at least if u really put in the effort to study, you will not have any regret. hahaha=D

endure few more weeks. after mt paper , then break a week then will have my op.

after that very moments, it shall determine whether im dead or alive! retain or promote.

May god bless everyone that i know including myself to get promoted.

i shall start striving hard be it for myself or simply for my parents!

its time to really start planning for my mt paper!

okay,trying to mug and plan for mt paper!

jiayou everyone! its a level, no jokes!

SAKAURA BUFFET!

2009-10-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GRANDMA!

went to eat Sakarua buffet.

sort of sick of the food there. because most of the time myfamily outing is over there.

when i went there, i sort of know what excatly i want to eat already! can u imagine that?

give my grandma a surprised by giving her a gift!

brought a bouquet of flower of my grandma. its the 1st time i buy gift for her. is not that i not a good gran-daughter just that i dont know what to buy and most of the time i want bring her out to eat or buy something for her, she will feel that i wasted my $$$. but then, now i sort of older, i decided to buy her a gift!

im like the camera girl down there! keep taking all sort of photo! hahaha=D

the nicer food i love is the blackforest cake and the durian puff! its damn nice!

after eating, gossip about study and other family stuff!

one thing that make us laugh like mad is that my father say that im his new girlfriends when i take photo with him! sort of funny because he dont normally crack these kind of jokes!

its better to see all the photo then words!

i shall upload it!

the bouquet of flower that i brought for my grandma

darling mummy

sweetest couples!

grand me & grandpa

still weird in this photo

after much trying but still failed!

three sister?

daddy "new girlfriend"

cute right?

its nice!

should try it.

my grandma

today was full of joy! but behind me there is lot of moments that i still rmb and dont wish to forget!

maybe in not that kind of person that super sociable but i know that im posessive!

you belong to me, so you must be MINE!

its hurtful to a lager extent!

quote: what belong to me will alway belong to me!

dont snatch it away from me!

you will never get it for sure!

so stop it! i will demand it back!

i mean what i say!

mood swing to the maximum!

2009-10-23T23:58:00.001+08:00

this few days has been a totally sucky days!

i guess im having mood swings.

i really have no choice to control it. i also dont want.

i really feel very very tired now!

stay back like few hours to help pei with the mural painting.

in fact, i didnt do much except giving eye power and also moral support!

sort of slack down there.

going to help peiqi out on that day on the painting part.

to my surprised, saw ernest today! hahaha=D

it has been a long time that i saw him already.

we talked like 45min then i realised that i reall miss jss council.

i miss 24th SC and all the seniors and teachers that have taught us well. thank to them then will have today shuyi! love them <3

went over to nuanqi hse to do my blog!

have a hard time trying to choose my blogskin and filling up all the details.

ate dinner over there!

THANK YOU NQ FOR YOUR HELP AND DINNER.!

she is a nice friends to know! hahhha=D

the headed home like around 9plus!

we talk a lot of stuff but i really enjoy it! hhaha=D

hope to have more time to know her better.

tmr is saturday! im going to have my grandma birthday celebration and i want to surprises her!

hahhha=D
some one has promised me to eat ice-cream buffet at ion! so must go with me.! hahhha=D
guess who ba!

Cam-whoring at marina barrage!

2009-10-23T23:02:00.001+08:00

Caption that was taken at marina barrage!

Entrance of the Marina Barrage

zi lian in camwhoring

xinyi[sister] and me

loving couples in the air!

daddy and me hugging that tears

trying to get wet, but we didnt!

the sister?

behind is million of new water bottles

interesting fact right?

STRESS UP! what can i do nxt?

2009-10-22T22:35:00.000+08:00

im totally stress up by a lot of thing!

why must all of you be so unfair to bring all the problems to me at one go?

do you all know that its killing me at times!

i have to face all sort of aspect...

family matters,studies [retain/promote], personnal problems!

i reall have enough of all this problems! why must i face all this? im not as strong as what all of you think? im also waek inside.i really have no choice but to ignore all this problems. i still have my a levels leh! can someone please be clear of that? im really not superman that can solve everything. im so tired now! i wish that i can be in comma and never wake up you no!

as for studies, my ct has sort of hinted me already! so what nxt? what can i do? i dont born up in a rich family leh! i may have a lot of other paths to go but ultimately that not what my parents want to see! why am i once and once again making them disappointed over me!? why? at time, i really think that im not a good daughter!

my family and personnal problems is really killing me to the max already! i feel very pressurize leh! feel like giving up. can someone tell me what i can do? i really cant go on already. i dont have the energy already! please let me off can! i hate myself for now!

i really have no choices! i really like walking to the end of it already! what more you want? im not writing this to gain anyone sympathy but im saying that i really tired off!

sorry to all those friends and people who have been trying to make me feel homely and making me feel happy together! i seriously feel the pain but do you really feel it? i know that at times is no one parties fault but i really sick of it!

i have so many other thing that i have to solve! why all coming and go at the same times? can it be put to an end? im damn damn tired! mentally tired now....

exhausting! really tired? no jokes!

its seem like i have limited choices to adopt! i really hate everything that come to me now!

i have alway be thinking as long as i tell myself that i have no fear mean that i will no longer fear! but mt fear eventually come! i know that its entirely unfair! but what can i do right? this world is like that!

i learnt that once you open your heart out to received something, the granted will eventually be somthing that will be taken back again! maybe fate can make a big differences! i learnt to face up with all the reailty! reality is harsh but who have the right to leave in their netherland? nobody? everyone have to come out!

let me pull myself out of it is it okay? please dont snatch it away! i really have enough! i juz want to face up with the reality! give me some tines please! stop pressing me until i feel as though i cant grasped some air to breathe! please! i really beg the reailty!

2009-10-21T16:16:00.001+08:00

please, let me escape to the world that really belong to me!
i have been feeling totally hurt and down today. i feel very moody do you know? i really dont know what excatly you want from me. do you know that im trying my best? no matter how torturing is it, im still trying! i have try so hard but what have you do? i may be strong in the outside, laughing, cheering and playing a fool around but do you know that what i really want? have you even think that im in the states of happiness now? are you aware? i want to be alone now...
i feel very pressurize! all the pressure are coming toward me! im feeling very tired and restless now, until i dont feel like like doing anymore thing! i really feel so hurt! its really pain in the heart? i dont know you exactly treasure what you have now but even you dont then just let it be lor! i already try and as usual, its take two hands to clap what! for instances, i can start fixing the puzzle, but without that puzzle piece of yours it will still be IMPREFECT!
lets me go to the world of mine first! even if you dont feel like doing anything to it, just dont break all the miracles! let me at least wish for something! STOP it! STOP breaking all fantasy wishes! and lastly, god, please stop snatching thing that are precious to me away from me!
PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE!!!!

Feeling totally sucky!

2009-10-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

I really feel sucky today. why am i the ones that trying to make the first step in everything? Do u know that im damn hurt when u actually leave me alone for the whole of today? i have nowhere to actually say out my feeling here! i really dunno how come this will happen. eventually i thought that after that incident we will be alright and its again a new step up to our friendship? but it seem as if its not. i feel very hurtful now. as in i dont know why this actually happen between us. i tried my best! i have alway been trying. we dont even talk for the whole of today lar. seriously, i dont know what actually happen. as in we are fine during the weekend but why we seriously becoming so harsh to each other. i thought that i will be able to leave in my dreamland! fantasy world but eventually is not! what am i supposed to do to make thing back as usual. should i leave u totally alone od what? what exactly you demand from me? im totally dont know what next move i will take!

A SILENT MOMENT THAT MAKE ME REFLECT LOTS!

2009-10-19T21:39:00.003+08:00

MONDAY, 19OCT09

WENT SHOPPING with

peiqi.

Meet at 130pm.

HEADED DOWN TO CITY

HALL!

Eat sakae for lunch! ate

curry udon. sort of nice

but eat too much then

feel very sick of it.

went to suntec to do

some shopping! got

to buy

shades-cotton on.

but i didnt get

eventually.

stay at cotton on

for quite some

time then head down

to marina square!

peiqi stay at the

zara shop like

SUPER LONG!

but i enjoy the time

shopping with her.

then yanling came!

yeah! so happy

to see her. like never

see her over the

weekend i guess so!

then went to JCO

to buy the doughnut

that my mummy

loves like crazy!

actually, i also

love it like mad!

headed home!

during the journey home, despite its such a short journey but i think a lot of reflections!

i was thinking about a lot of things.

Am i going to drag on with the half-dead, draggy and unpredicted relationship? as in i dont really know if there is any prospectives to it or not! i dont know what should i actually do to really maintain on. i feel that everything that happen this year has never been something good. we started off our relationship at the beginning of this year. we are very sweet in the start. we will meet up after his work for dinner. he will send me home, go out during the weekend, msging and even talk on phone. this sounded like in the dreamland but everything is so sweet and awesome! then this dream of mine started to break off! we begin to be cold to each other. we dont have any fights or etc, just feel drifted away. i have been trying my best to make myself fee; that he's worthwhile for me but it seem like im lying to myself. till now, i exactly dunno what he really want from me! as in i cant predict. i have been trying hard to change all these but nothing seem to work out! then should i really end? i dont know! i also think about other stuff! am i trying to find substitute? im not sure too! i think about the days i step into jc and also the people i met. i have always been trying to adapt to the style of studying! honestly, i think back what kind of person am i? im a very possessive kind of person! i also want everyone! i juz like to go around making friends. i like the feel where everyone stay together but i also like the feel of having a close friends that stand closely by me. im that kind who really want someone that is closer to my heart! everyone can get close to me but who actually are!? actually im once and once again disappointed with myself! as in, i really dunno what i actually want!i have been aimlessly leaving in this world since the start of 2009! everything seem so complex to me. i dont know what people around me are actually thinking! i have been in this situation for long! how i wish that this year faster end, maybe a new year will be generally better to me! honestly, sorry if sometimes i feel that myself are drifting apart but seriously im not. not that i want to do that but i just hesitating. feeling lose for a moment! cant i just stay happy for every moment? why heaven is always trying to find fault out of everything i do!

maybe someone can really guide me out of the path. but i have never stop trying! please be more fair to me even though this world has never been fair at all! those thing that you have given to me, please dont snatch it away. i really want them! i want it to stay with me forever!

THINKING DEELPY! REFLECTING! =D

2009-10-18T23:32:00.003+08:00

SATURDAY, 170CT09

HAPPY DEEPVALI TO ALL THE HINDUS!
Its was a FAMILY OUTING for me too!
i seldom went for family outing but because my mummy keep asking me to go so i WENT TOO...
we went to marine barrage in the morning like SUPER EARLY!
7AM in the morning! isnt it EARLY? To me, it is!
I keep complaining once i wake up. I was LIMPING the WHOLE OF SATURDAY!
due to the injury on friday. One whole lump of blue-black popping out! as though someone beaten me up!
hahhah=D
WENT MARINA BARRAGE!
My mummy want to go there so we shall go with her!
take a lot of photo as a family! cam-whoring like mad with me around!
I went to stalk a baby guy. he is damn cute. photo of him will be uploaded.
feel like playing with him in the small small river. seem immature but who cares!
then went to the section where it talk about the SUSTAINABLE SPORE!
Im interested with it. sort of learn something about spore even though im not a geo students!
Learn about how water level are being controlled in singapore. Suddenly realised that singapore is so high-tech. hahahh=D
then , went to the other end of spore!
TAMPINESS MALL!
its my 1st time there too.
went to their japanese gourmet restaurant to eat!
ate their sabo sabo. quite nice! the fruit tarts was AWESOME! DAMN NICE!
walk around then go home sleep!
have the other half to attend!
went out to meet huiying, peiqi and yanling!
accompany peiqi for pw! hahhha=D
have dinner together!slack around then went home! =D

FIRST RONO OUTING! 16OCT09

2009-10-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

FIRST TIME, RONO FINALLY has made today outing A BIGGEST SUCCESS!
without all e effort of all the HSE COUNCILLORS, today wont be A SUCCESS!
this is the REALLY FIRST TIME that we actually have!
i used to be not bonded with those rono ppl. As in, i dun really know them well. To me, i only know that they exist BUT i didnt have a closer understanding about time.
INITIALLY, i really dun feel like attending this bbq.
because i keep thinking that i wont know much ppl and we wont have much thing communicate.
BUT AFTERWHICH, pitsoon make it attendance compulsory so i have to go!
AND I WENT TOO...
DURING THE BBQ, beside rono ppl, also there are benedict and minsunn!
i never regret going...
we cam-whoring, bbq and really play like mad with the trolleys!
I think they REALLY LEND A GREAT HELPING HAND TO US!
we got LIMITED GUY, so with their help, really make a lot of differences!
THANK BENEDICT FOR HELPING US GET THE FIRE STARTED WITH JUNHAO AND ALL THE FUN THAT YOU BRING FOR US!
THANK MINSUNN FOR HELPING US OUT IN THE BBQ!
LAST BUT NOT LEAST, NOT FORGETTING ALL THE HSE COUNCIL PPL OF RONO WHO HAVE ATTEND, WITHOUT YOU ALL, IT WONT BE A SUCCESS!
WE WONT BE ABLE TO ENJOY SO MUCH WITHOUT U ALL! THANK FOR MAKING AN EFFORT TO ORGANISE ALL THIS! LETS HAVE MORE OUTING NEXT TIME! hahhha=D
I REALLY HAVE A GREAT TIME TODAY! despite that i fall down and have two SUPER BIG BIG BLUE-BLACK BRUISES lor! hahhha=D
today, i realised something! ACTUALLY, at times we may feel that we dislike this person but we juz think in our own ways! maybe he/she is really a a person with a lot of bad points but he/she will have a good point too! LETS NOT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER! although i did that like at times but judging the person, but i think we must try to compromise each other weakness! but i cant denied that he/she should also change his/her attitude bec the attitude that he/she give will make ppl think differently of him/her again! people will tend to REBEL and think negatively of you!
So, CHANGE YOURSELVES TO BECOME A BETTER PERSON! hahhha=D
MAYBE MORE OUTING WILL MAKE RONO PPL MORE BONDED!
photo will be uploaded on facebook! see from there bec i lazy put here too!!
thank everyone!

2009-10-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL AS USUAL..

wake up like EARLY IN THE MORNING!

oh yes! my class doing CLASS TEE!

so LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!

math lecture, yanling come into my lecture hall! hahha=D

i TOTALLY NEVER PAY ATTENTION IN MATH LECTURE!

teacher is already at the nxt topic

BUT IM STILL AT POWER SERIES!

shit mann! i guess im in DEAD MEAT this time round!

went to PERANAKAN MUSEUM today! NO PHYSIC.

the trip was quite fun as in i really have closer understanding about nonya.

FIRST OUTING that my class have!

so called 'CLASS OUTING'

waited for peiqi to end dance and yanling to end her talks!

Trying to motivate huiying to join dance bec she really a GOOD DANCER!

GOOD PROSPECTIVE IN DANCE!

we waited for yanling for like 30min plus!

see? how nice friends we are! hahhah=D

she confirmed FEEL APPRECIATED ONE!

accompany them to LJS to eat dinner!

stay at popular like SUPER LONG!

see horoscope, but card and jux catch some reading!

then my father send them home!

SUPER TIRING TODAY!

AND ITS ONLY WEDNESDAY!

STILL GOT THURS AND FRIDAY!

A LONG LONG LONG WEEKEND COMING!

AHALL MAKE MY WEEKEND A MEANINGFUL ONE!

HAHHAH=D

LESSON AGAIN!

2009-10-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

Im SUPER in DEAD MEAT this time round.
i failed my physic and math leh!
like FAIL BADLY!
seriously, i dunno what will happen next!
i put in SO MUCH EFFORT in studying math and
IN THE END, i still like shit! rather than i never put in as much effort in chem but i can still pass chem!
WHAT REALLY IS THE PROBLEM WITH ME?
i seriously very lost now!
NOW, i can only wish that i can get promoted!
OH GOSH! please help me to promote!
i really dont want disappoint my parents.
PLEASE TELL ME WHAT CAN I DO NEXT!
*CRIES,CRIES,CRIES*

WHATS A SLACKING SATURDAY I HAVE!

2009-10-10T22:28:00.001+08:00

For the past few months of Saturday, it has been always very busy and hectic.

morning, i have to go for cip at shuqun sec, follow by math tuition and then follow by chem tuition.

its always so BUSY!

BUT

THIS SATURDAY REALLY MAKE A BIG BIG BIG DIFFERENCE!

i dont have to wake up early.

i slack the whole day by sleeping, watching tv and practically slack all the way!

never touch hp much today bec i dun feel like msging someone which i used to msg often!

sorry if i really do to this extreme bec i think that maybe we are from the different world!

to prevent conflict i have to do so.

i want to go SHOPPING!

i want to watch MOVIES too.

i have so many many things that i WANT TO DO

BUT i dont have the time to finish all.

hhahha=D

tmr, i helping out my mummy in doing sushi!

PLAY TIME AGAIN!

A day where its stressful but enjoyable day!

2009-10-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

STRESSFUL?
get back result today.
is so STRESS-UP when the teacher keep your result in suspense.
the atmosphere was SUPER TENSE-UP. like the whole class was quieten down.
there are people who are happy over their result and there are also people who are sad and feel demoralised over their result!
As for me, based on promo mark, i pass my 2h2 and 1h1 for the times being!
At least to me, i think that i have not wasted my few week before the exam in studying and mugging real hard everyday!
to me, i think that as long i did my best, i think that i will have no regret in anything!
whoever has done their best then they should not broad over it. because all the teachers will have the eye to see if u really put in the effort! As long as you have put in the effort, u will gain what you deserve!

morning have council meeting.
maybe what they say make sense that, since council is we choose want then shouldnt we put in our best effort in it. maybe it seem good that they are enforcing this law that, whoever never turn up for meeting more than 3times then they will be sack! maybe that a good solutions but does it benefits everyone? i also dunno. no comment over it!
talking about commitment in council, yes, we should do that. but they should also think back that are the hse council really bonded as a whole where they can be initative and be self-driven! passion can be developed to ones if they feel that they are involved and feel the belonging! but is most of the councillor feel the belonging?
honestly not all of then are feeling that way as a hse council that make them dun want to feel involved in those activities! at times, they may be in guilt and wanting to participate in those event, but are they being recognise by the fellow council mates! not everyone are! i believe those who have went thru this interview, they really want to be council. or else why they still trouble themselves thru all those interview! they will have at least a minimum passion in it! BUT are they given the chance to unleash it? did ppl give them the basic respect? maybe we should ask ourselves and reflect through thoroughly!

ENJOYMENT TIMES!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DARLING HUIYING!
celebrate huiying birthday today!
give her a lot of surprises!!
Council ppl give her surprises too.
MY CLASS CLIQUE!
I REALLY LOVE YOU ALL hahha=D
went to huiying hse!
then we hid in her room. then she was shocked the moment she saw us! hahha=D
then we play true of the truth!
we really ask about each other gossip!
we really have a GREAT TIME TOGETHER AS ONE!
DINE AT PIZZA!
we really enjoy urself hahhah=D
to huiying: hope that u enjoy the birthday celebration that we have planned for you! we really want you to have a significant birthday celebration too!
we will always LOVE YOU =D

CHANGES? SOMEONE HAVE TO LEAD!

2009-10-07T21:02:00.001+08:00

AS USUAL getting up early to go to school.

my class attendance was SUPER POOR!

LESS THAN 10 STUDENTS CAME TODAY!

I GUESS TMR WILL HAVE MORE PEOPLE PRESENT!

HOPE SO.

practically, WHOLE DAY WAS TALKS,TALKS,TALKS and TALKS!

BUT BUT BUT BUT

we have hip-hop dance today!

its was RATHER a RARE experience for people like ME bec i dun really dance and all.

NICE TRY!

have HOUSE TALK today!

WASNT REALLY PRODUCTIVE!

BUT at least we got some responses back from the audience.

thank to people who have contributed =D

something that CROSSES MY MIND was what the teacher say!

its true that if we really want changes, is not by talking but is PURELY BY ACTION!

TALK IS CHEAP! everyone can talk but is not about that.

they also ask who are the leaders in the sec school. then i raise up my hand. then he question us back: are we doing more in sec or in jc level?

then i reflect and i ask myself. i agree that i doing more in my sec life as a leaders and as a council!

BUT NEXT I ASK IS WHY DID THIS HAPPENED?

i really dunno but maybe i didnt shine out myself as a leader?

Also, i think that we shouldnt see thing on the surface! there maybe ppl in this world which is trying to gain credit out of it, but that maybe some people point of view. we shouldnt let our personal biased judgement on them.i think that since we are a house then we should work as one and not being BIASED! sometimes it may work out when everyone is given the EQUAL RIGHTS AND CHANCES and this may make people feel more RESPECTED! WE SHOULD RESPECT OTHER BEFORE WANTING THEN TO RESPECT US! is not by forcing them but making it willingly for them. Next, i think that the way people are commanding other to do thing should not be like ' A SMALL BOSS BOSSING AROUND'. i think that everyone should use a proper tome to talk to one another. WE SHOULD ACCEPT WHAT OTHER SAY AND CHANGE IT? CANT IT BE DONE? IS IT SO HARD TO DO? BY SWALLOWING ALL UR PRIDE? i seriously dunno! maybe i myself is not a good leader either but i willing to try. i think we should be BONDED FIRST! that the PRIORITY ISSUE FOR US! afterwhich, its everyone INITATIVE to do their best.

REALLY HOPE THAT CHANGES WILL BE MAKE!

KEP POINTS: RESPECT OTHER, SPEAK OUT UR UNHAPPINESS! LEADERS SHOULD MAKE THE VOICES OF PEOPLE BE SOUNDED

THEN

U CAN CLAIMED YOURSELVES AS A LEADER! NOT PURELY A LEADER BUT GOOD LEADER

hahha=D

CCA CARNIVAL TOMMORROW!

hope that its a success =D

last day of enjoyment!

FRIDAY MAYBE GETTING BACK PAPER! ARRRRGGGHHH!!

ITS PARTY TIME! I LOVE IT TO THE MAX!

2009-10-06T22:07:00.000+08:00

FINALLY, ITS OVER!

PHYSIC PAPER was TOTALLY UNDO-ABLE!

i have a strong feeling that i will fail physic lor!

WHATEVER!

ITS PARTY TIME! i waited for this day like super long can!

NOW, i realised that i LOVE TUESDAY too..

went to CELEBRATE HUIYING advance birthday!

its meant to be a "SURPRISE PARTY"

BUT

bec of council, all our plans have to be changed!

sorry if the party was not well-planned!

FINALLY..

we went 'people lunch' to eat lunch.

we sort of the 1st few to go into that eating places but almost everyone is done and leave the place, we are still half way thru onli.

watch that movie-FAME!

then rushed back school for council stuff!

afterwhich, went to pei hse and we started SLACKING! AS USUAL!

was SUPER FUN

i really hope that huiying really enjoy today! hahhah=D

quarrel with my mother thru msg!

NOW, we are alright already!

SLACKING SHOPPING PLAYING ENJOYING

SHALL ALL PRONOUNCE THE START OF TODAY!

LAST CHANCE TO MUG? its PARTY TIME SOON!

2009-10-05T15:46:00.000+08:00

CHEMISTRY PAPER...
was rather ok paper 2 but paper1 was like so diffcult lor!
IRONIC right?
i think paper one will pull my mark down.
BUUUUTTTT...i realy wish that i can AT LEAST HAVE A PASS GRADE!
oh my goodness! PLEASE GIVE ME THAT PASS!
I WANT IT! DESPERATELY WANT WANT WANT WANT IT!

tomorroow
PHYSIC PAPER
i HATE PHYSIC, BUT i have no choice but to take that paper!
how i wish that i can dun nid take it!
and
PARTY TIME
shall start tommorrow!
I LOVE IT! MORE THAN ANYONE!
i have soooo MANY MANY MANY MANY thing that i what to do! no one can deprived me or get it away from me!

CHEMISTRY AND PHYSIC! im trying to LOVE u all but it seem so HARD!

2009-10-04T14:30:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY!

MID-LANTERN FESTIVALS!

have steamboat as dinner that home.

its been AGES that i have steamboat with my family.

in the past, lantern festivals seem to be very fun occasion but now, the feeling has already be gone!

maybe all of us have grown up. woo! time really flies! like i have received 11YEARS of schooling.

mugging during lantern festivals?

i bet that everyone are doing that!

mugging for chemistry and other subject.

SOOOOO NO LIFE! but NOOO CHOICE!

still got sooo many thing to study for chem.

its like NEVER-ENDING!

hahha=D

i no someone that will go MIA like soo long one lor!

msging will not reply. can leave hp like aside for many many days!

hahha=D guess who? i bet no one will no?

LOL=D

ok then start mugging now!

it CHEMISTRY!

i muz try to LOVE IT!

2009-10-03T11:49:00.000+08:00

MUGGING again!
i shall go onto a mugging journey!
mug for my CHEMISTRY!
HERE I AMMMM....
BUCK UP SHUYI =D

anyway, HAPPY SWEET 18th birthday to junice!
all the best for her =D

TROUBLED?

2009-10-02T16:28:00.001+08:00

CONSULATION with mrhong for CHEMISTRY!

last chance to SAVE myself already.

please god, give me the last hope. =D

*CRIES*

lunch with huiying, peiqi, yanling.

four of us are becoming soo CLOSE! hahha=D

wooo...movie in tues together.

i hope that tues can come like now! OMG!

i have SOOO MANY thing to do once tues have arrived!

SHOPPING WITH BESTIE

WATCHING MOVIE

PLANNING A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY FOR SPECIAL ONES

RESTING, ENJOYING MY HOLIDAY

whatever is it, i want my tues to come. i want to enjoy myself !

ok, SHALL START TO MUG NOW!

MUGMUGMUG CHEMISTRY!

CHEMISTRY! IM GOING TO CONCURR YOU NOW!

TWO MORE WARS TO FIGHT ON...

2009-10-01T17:02:00.000+08:00

something happen ytd that make me understand that my parent really care for me. my daddy keep supporting me and encouraging me to study hard. Also, they no how must effort i have put in for these few paper. maybe i have not done enough at the start but i really try my veri veri best. its seem last min but i tried. sorry that i disappointed everyone.

ECONS paper today!

at least econs paper is generally better then math paper. math paper is a KILLER!

YEAH! two h2 has finished. i still got chem and physic left.

the nxt STRESS subject is CHEMISTRY!!

ARRRGGHH! please set the paper easier.

went with huiying and her family to have lunch tgt.

SAME PLACE as ytd.

huiying mother is rather open and friendly to communciate.

is supposed to eat with fangting,benita.zhiyang and weichen.

IM SORRY ABOUT IT!

nxt time lets eat tgt again.

went hy hse to slack around. hy was sleeping while i watching tv. i think she is DAMN TIRED! give her some rest before she start the nxt battle.

JIAYOU EVERYONE!

pei and yanling: tmr last paper! jiayou and all ur best=D

SCREWED UP ALMOST EVERYTHING!

2009-09-30T15:05:00.000+08:00

EVERYTHING seem so screwed up in my life. whatever thing i do, it doesnt have one thing that make me feel happy about. maybe in life, theres no such thing as perfect. but im not asking for perfect! i juz hope to achieve something in life!
ytd, i having a math marathon. my tuition teacher set an exam paper for us to do. i TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED in myself. i cant even do those question. i nid teacher to hint me on how to do. what really happen to me? i almost burst out in tears. i just control myself. what can i do for myself now? i reflect back: how was my life in the past? think back during PSLE, i was too confident of myself, hence i FAILED to go into my desired school. then i got into jss. jss give me the light again for my future. i study, i play and i succeed in my olevels. i worked so hard, now im in jc. BUT, WHY arent i doing my best now? have i really make the wrong choice in my life.? i dun want to regret again. WHAT to DO NXT? i try to motivated myself. i guess i have really let my parents disappointed again. i alway hope that i can make em proud. now, i feel very guilty and sorry for my parents. i dun want let them worry about me. im DAMN LOST now!
today, math exam! i really cant do those question, i revise my tutorial and do those practices but i FAILED to do those question. what actually am i doing? i really dunno. i stay up late at night to study, i wake up early to study BUT IN THE END, my hardwork is still not paid off.
my WHOLE life is sooo screwed up now as i dunno wad im going to do nxt. i really hope that there's someone in my life can help me again? i really nid someone to help me. im veri sacred for the rest of the exam. i dun have the confident again to do.
im sorry to those who have high hope in me but i FAILED to achieve that. please stoopp hoping that i will do well and make u all proud. sorry that im so useless now....

WHAT I REALLY WANT FROM YOU?

2009-09-29T10:00:00.000+08:00

CHINESE PAPER was TOTALLY SCREWED UP in the begining but i managed to get it edited. hope that it wont affect my result much. whatever it is, ITS OVER! lets dun broad abt it.

went for a short break with my friends, MOVIE TIME- the accidents. it was quite a nice show but the ending suck damn lots. went pzza hut for dinner. its sort of fulfill my craving for pizza hut for the last few days.

WENT HOME

STARTED MY MUGGING JOURNEY! SOO UNPRODUCTIVE MANN! i onli finish revising the techniques of differentiation. Arrrggghhh!!!!

anyway, SORRY HUIYING FOR NEVER ACC YOU HOME YTD and also HOPE THAT YANLING CAN RECOVER FROM HER SICKNESS SOOON. Also, PEIQI HAS BIO EXAM TODAY. WISHES HER ALL THE BEST TOO=D

lastly, HOPE TO GO WINDOW SHOPPING/SHOPPING WITH BESTIE,LQ BEFORE HER SCHOOL STARTS!

today i will be having math tuition marathon from 2-4pm. kill my brain cell mann..

NEVERMIND! DO IT ONCE AND DO IT GREAT!

MATH PAPER TMR! is my worst subject of all.. hope that i can get at least B grade. it seem like a wishful thinking but i really hope that it was my grade.

START MUGGING NOW!

MUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGINNNNG!

2009-09-27T16:48:00.000+08:00

Morning got math tuition. keep yawning and feel sleepy throughout the math lesson.
today is a surprised day for me.
1. 5th SPECIAL MONTH OF MY FRIENDSHIP DAYS
2. WE CHAT ON MSG
3. FINALLY finish my MARKET FAILURE notes.
woo-hoo. im so scared. dunno where to put my focus on. everyone that i no is enjoying their lives and wad about me?
MUG, MUG,MUGGING! im whinning and complaining. whatever. and who cares lor-.-
heck care now.
TMR IS CHINIESE PAPER! DO IT ONCE AND DO IT GREAT! :D